10 Notoriously Controversial Books

Ocellus 7 / 18 Mar, 2012 at 10:52 pm

Extremisms, to harm and or murder innocent people, is evil period. I may be Islamic, Jewish, Catholic or something other; the label may cause a division, a bias, so I won’t give myself an additional label, not just yet other than the common thread that identifies us all, I’m a human being! My personal situation… I was born to a mother, who I later learned from her Grandmother and aunt that she could not walk or talk until she was nearly four years old, delayed childhood development was the first indication that she may have a biological abnormality. A hidden illness that has caused me and my siblings much pain, I’m her eldest and have been unable to thrive as I should, have had lifelong depression, my brother 10 yrs. younger, is very ill, unable to function normally, my sister is deceased! My mother is seriously ill, mentally but her mental illness is not obvious to others which may appear, as being initially differences in one’s personal opinion and or a personality clash, no big deal but after spending time with Mom and behind closed doors, it is more than just simply differences! Mom illness causes her to have tunnel vision, not to see rational logic if it goes against her intent which is to have a sense of being in control, a false sense of control, being right, a false sense of being right, a need to be needed, falsely gained by psychological blackmail and or the threat of punishment! Others, her siblings for one, have just given into her demands, trying to avoid her tantrums or threats then she turns into a child can’t figure out the simplest things, yet almost always makes much of everything so very complex then turns into a demon, which gives her a false sense of superiority even if it meant harming her own children! There are many people similar to my Mom, who are ill, who never had any indication of having a biological illness, an abnormal problem, such as Mom had, like delayed development, who are nevertheless ill and it is hidden; and they are not diagnosed, not helped, given the tools to help themselves understand their illness, able to be mindful and learn how to help themselves and therefore help prevent others from being harmed! Left untreated these ill people, settle into this disturbed way of thinking, adopt whatever beliefs coincide with their warped thinking and if it means tweaking a belief system, redefining it then they will! My own mother has repeatedly harmed me, is jealous of me which in its self is abnormal for a parent to feel this way towards one’s child! I have since learned that this illness my Mom has, is not limited to just her particular disorder which is really a combination of a few disorders and can’t be identified singularly, under one convenient label that says, this is the name of this disorder! I believe, some people who have a hidden ugly, have evil-envy for others, have self-hate stemming from hurt will adopt whatever cause that agrees with their own inner ugly that allows them to release, purge their ugly. And some of these individuals of any race or religious affiliation, who act-out “Evil Extremes” harm and or murder innocent people have become demonically possessed… they have a biological disorder, a mental illness! A chemical imbalance that has taken place, by way of their negative thinking, their evil acts, making them psychopaths or they too were born with a disorder that had morphed into making them psychopaths, by way of their extreme thinking=actions! Either way these people become, well practiced liars, are deceptively clever and they act, in order to solicit others to misuse their powers and act on their behalf, on behalf of their disorder(s) because they themselves are ill-minded and have a need, an inner evil that wants to adopt a cause that will justify them hurting others people they do not know and this has happened to me! Mom is ill and has gotten her brother and his wife who have no disorder, to act on Mom’s behalf and my uncle & aunt have gotten others to act, people who are in positions of authority to misuse their power, in order to harm me as had happen, with the intent to further harm me and or murder me; when I have done nothing but continuously forgiven my mother for the harm she has caused my siblings and me. I’m a flawed sinner, as we all are, I’ve made mistakes and take shame in that and not blame but growing up with an ill person as I have, it has taken more time to shed the thinking, the behaviors, lift the denial from learned concepts, behaviors taught me as a child and mimicked later, due to living with an ill-minded parent, who admits to no wrong doing; my Mom, as well as the men I met, who are ill psychopaths, along with my uncle and my aunt are either unable to see their wrongs or simply refuse too! I suspect some people may think me and my family to possibly be muslin and or part of an extremist religious sect …wrong! I’m talking about people who have a hidden disorder or are simply ill, ill-minded and prone to evil deeds! I would like my story to be published one day, in order to help and not harm, disarm and or loosen divisions made by some labels! My story, heartache, what happen to me was more complex, bigger in scope but God I know now, protected me, did not want me to be overwhelmed and see the bigger picture to soon! Short summary, I was caring for my psychical ill Dad, a decent, kind hearted man! I as I’ve mentioned, have had lifelong depression nothing more that which stemmed from living with an ill Mom. I sought standard-counseling, supportive guidance while caring for my ill father, I was directed to a facility that offered counseling services, meeting a counselor, a man but something was amiss with him but I put those unidentifiable feelings aside and continued my sessions with him!

In short this counselor, I learned was ill, like my mother, I recognized it, he was seriously ill, a psychopath! I’m an artist, I have a trained eye, as well! The mind is but a tool used as such, a natural mechanism that alerts us intuitively to dangers, psychic images, minus the sophisticated training, labels, we all use are intuitive abilities on some level naturally and this ability, like any other skill, can be enhance with further training and or through art, as is the case with me! While in close proximity to this man, the counselor following several sessions, I became intuitively suspicious and began intentional observing him, noticing subtly differences, slightly taller during one sessions, shorter the next and the cartilage shaping his nose and ears was different, as well as other anatomical differences; the rational conclusion was that this counselor had nearly identical siblings that were switching places prior to my individuals sessions! And of course, due to the circumstances as they were, counseling sessions, is one of the reasons why they had been getting with, what they were doing! I later concluded, they were allowed to do so and their motivation, their intent, as was witnessed, was to intentionally drive the client, me in this instants, who had been set-up as had happened, to intentionally push me, over the edge, making me think that I was going nuts, when I was actually witnessing “Lunacy in Motion” and I was sane enough to identify the situation for what it actual was! This counselor and the accomplice(s) who assumed the same role, as being one man solely while using the very same name, account for each other’s time; they harm and or murder people, yes okay, allegedly! I was doing, just as the Looney counselor and the accomplice(s) had been further trained to do, using my mind during transference and counter-transference, a technique used in *****ysis; I began picking-up images, crimes that were directly related to them which I later rechanneled into drawings that weren’t immediately understood until later! The counselor began acting bizarre, as did the accomplice(s) during my individual sessions, revealing that they were seriously ill people, energized by an evil energy that made its presence known! The short of this is, prior to being directed to this facility, unbeknownst to me, but then that was the intent while setting me UP.. that I not know, I was befriended by one of their associates, years earlier, Al, he too claimed to be someone he wasn’t; we began exchanging E-mails and the idea behind that I also discovered, was Al, wanted to get an unguarded personal perspective, on who I was, while lifting my art off of my computer as well! Human commodity, money, something of value that they want, personal acclaim and or a means that would be profitable to the overall groups endeavors, in this instants, a nonfictional story, later to be a published book and or something similar! These identical men were obviously, either predisposed to having strong resemblances, as in multiples or genetic manipulation was the intent and part of a long term plan that has been in progress, possibly, not so new “World Order” and part of both political parties, may be? And to further help their warped endeavors along, they have connections within show-biz, staging, disguises, body-doubles-actors.. etcetera! Some are pedophiles and murderers, *****ual deviates having hidden agendas and no doubt have joined forces with other ill-minded professionals and they are working within the system and were allowed to do as they had and have been setting-up people because they can with the intent to harm and or murder them and given the okay to do so, by ill-minded others, politicians!~ I’m afraid of my own mother, her brother, my uncle and his wife because they know these people, these ill-minded counselors, along with the professionals who had misused their power, in order that I be harmed; with the intent to further harm me; they are screwballs period! I later learned, that this counselor, one of the posing Identical screwballs, had years earlier staged his death and was the very same man shown, pictured on dedications sites, showing the supposedly deceased man who had died years earlier and was the same man, the counselor I had met, who is a psychopath, who I repeatedly interacted with! And a nonfictional book was published about the supposedly dead man’s journey and death which is actually a public hoax! I strongly believe with valid reasons, that the real author of this book “Into The Wild” is the same man who had befriended me, calling himself Al Bliss later Al Smith, who wanted to get a personal take on me, while writing another book that had to do with artist in general and or an artist, myself in which my art would be used and the man calling himself Al, had a public stand-in author not because he wanted to maintain his privacy, as some authors do but to hide who he is, due to ill intent intended! During my sessions, much had happened including role reversal and I began discussing their crimes and showing them my drawings that revealed their collective conscious, their past history and they began to feel, threatened by me and purposed marriage, asked me to be his lover, offered me a position and when I did not respond to these disguised lures, I was then threatened with murder! Well, yeah, it’s painful to learn that your own family is involved! My mother was born with a disorder and the other people, well I guess they had developed a disorder or are simply ill-minded people! Any negative label will due “Evil Extremes”! They have money and the right connections and some of these individuals are part of a satanic cult and hiding behind acceptable labels, positions here in Massachusetts! I too, had thoughts about harming these men, this counselor, and the accomplice(s) while in their presences but prayed hard, in order to further learn unanswered questions, like who else knew, who had allowed them to harm me? They also have women, acting on their behalf, who are just as ill and I suspect have also murdered unsuspecting people, who like myself were “Set-Up!” I do pray for my enemy, my ill family and their associates but now I must keep my distance, I do NOT trust them and have advised my adult sons, one married with children, to stay clear of my Mom, her brother and his wife, who works for a judge and they had people misuse their power and connections in order that I be harmed! The problem is, this operation has been in progress for some time! The most vulnerable people will be targeted, if they can be of some value or manipulated into harming others, used as patsy and these individuals are found through their privately funded institutions, counseling facilities and alike and some people are very susceptible, easily mislead by subtly persuasions and the corrupt use of psycho*****ysis along with hypnosis that is aligned with brainwashing techniques as I also had witnessed, an updated version of the “Manchurian Candidate” the screwball *****yst gives directives, in order that the already vulnerable individual will do their dirty work, will harm people and or committee murders, shoot people at political rallies and alike, as had happened and the counselors/psychologist, are rarely if ever scrutinized! I strongly suspect, that the individuals who had been murdered, found on Long Island New York in April of 2011 which was said to be a dumping ground, for one or more killers, are the men I met and or associated to them! A young girl Celina Cass, 11 yrs. old in Stewartstown New Hampshire in July of 2011, disappeared and about two weeks later she was found dead, in a nearby hydro electric dam with a blanket still wrapped around her which has similarities to the Ramsey case. Jonbenet Ramsey was found slain with a blanket wrapped around her and I believe the counselor I met, wrote the Ramsey note and he along with his associates had murdered this child, Jonbenet; no innocent child should be murdered regardless of the crimes the parents may have committed, if any at all! And yes, I realize that children are murdered everyday globally, as well as unsuspecting innocent people and I pray but I’m now discussing, in-part my story about a specific group of people that I had crossed paths with! The duct tape found on the Ramsey child, baffled the authorities, beaver hair was found on the tape that was removed from Jonbenet’s lifeless body, as well as, an unaccounted for pocket knife! In the nonfictional book “Into The Wild” the said author, as well as Chris, who the story is written about (who years later, reemerges here in Mass. as a counselor) had to slosh through standing beaver ponds, during the Alaska thaw to arrive at the abandon bus-142 where Chris had supposedly died, a body was found, identified by the dental X-rays that were sent to Alaska, whose body was really found? Beaver hair was found on the duct tape, beaver hair as well as duct tape and some, plural as is stated, pocket knives were given to Chris, who had staged his death with the assistance of others, who had written in his journal the day he arrived at Stampede Trail, the Alaska bush and headed into the woods, as being “Rabbit Day” and my interpretation of this cryptic note knowing that Chris J. McCandless did not die “Rabbit Day” means to burrow in bus-142, to symbolically die and symbolically resurrect to do as Chris had stated, to understand things fully, you must actually experience them fully, by doing them and in this case, because Chris had staged his death, he’s assumed to be dead and free to acted-out “Evil Extremes!” Was Chris know by Al and his associates to be ill, found out by people having access to medical data, who had later befriended Chris and subtly brained washed him into joining them, committing crimes, murders, well yeah that too is a very real possibly because the people Chris is associated too, I suspect, are part of a subversive group, which may have something to do with, world war 2 and the families of the soldiers who fought in this war, possibly those soldiers who were a-part of certain missions, such as the “Asianic Campaign” as was my Dad’s brother, my Uncle, who was on a destroyer ship, for three years, the USS Halligan and part of the Okinawan battle that took over the Island from the empire of Japan before being blown up! This may be a valid connection, Asians & German-NAZIs in, World War 2, NAZI multiples, Chris had, to describe more accurately which is not meant to describe an entire group of people in a negative way! Chris had, Asian Mannerism, Characteristics, hmmm? May be Indo-Aryan? There may be a connection between myself and other individuals, who, the said author, Jon Krakauer of “Into The Wild” and of other books, tells stories about people, who had been murdered, met an un fortunate demise, supposedly in Chris case, staged his death or had, what appeared to be, a fatal accident, is there a connection between, World War two and the families of the soldiers who fought in that war, possibly? Two young children, toddlers were also recently abducted over the past several months, from their homes, one child in Missouri another in New Hampshire, which may also be related to these men and or their organized group that of course is a possibility but remains unknown! I suspect that some these individuals, *****ual deviates, perverts, pedophiles, ritualistically murders of children, snuff killings, as had happened to the Ramsey child, are part of a *****ographic ring which makes ill movies of adults having ***** with children! I strongly suspect that many of these children, for whatever reason, poverty, a bad home life, who are institutionalized before being placed in foster homes, MAY fall victim to pedophiles in some instances, are drugged and a setting staged, in order to further confuse the children when they later begin to recall these events, have delayed reactions that later reemerges! Such is the case, I strongly suspect in the book “Magic Castle” the author, Carol Smith, a foster parent, who later adopted a boy named Alex, who the nonfictional story is about which takes place in and around Massachusetts and Alex in my opinion was led to believe that his own family was part of a cult and they along with others had molested him! Alex may have been *****ual molested, as a child by family members but they would do so while in the privacy of their own homes, not wanting to be exposed but Alex recalled, most often, as is stated, being taken from his home to other locations where there were other children and a Halloweenish atmosphere, people wearing robes with cultish props, candles, upside down crosses and worm like crap strewed all over the floor, babies being murdered and at another location there was an indoor arena, animals being mutilated etcetera! Now I do believe there are satanic cults but this nonfictional story, in many instants does not make logical sense within the bizarre content that has supposed to have happened! Alex family is poor and may have been intellectually challenged and that is why Alex was exploited. Alex’s family had few to no resources, little money and were supposedly, as is stated, also alcoholics! Why would they take their child, Alex out of their home to be *****ual victimized when they could stay at home and act out their deviate acts privately! Poor people who have addictions and then having the wear with all, to go to such elaborate extremes, does not make sense, even if Alex’s parents and or family members were ill-minded and were paid by others to additionally *****ually molest Alex, they would do so, it seems, inside Alex’s own home! The photographed picture shown on the back inside cover of this book “Magic Castle” shows Alex as a handsome adult resembling very much an actor with the author, his adopted Mom Carol Smith; Alex looks just like Al the man who had befriended me, he was an actor and a good writer, who claimed to also be, a part-time thumb-traveler, who took risk looking for stories to write! Oh but that too is just a coincidence, as well Hugh? I strongly suspect that the people my family had solicited to harm me and were possibly, unaware (Wishful thinking, it’s just difficult to fathom, even in face of all that had happened, the evidence that tells me otherwise!) of what other crimes they have committed but that is unknown, but “Deals” were made with unscrupulous people, who write stories, befriend people who are in the process of being set- up, who are mislead into believing otherwise initially, as I was, given false information comparable to their intent which is really to harm and or murder the chosen victim; in a way that appears to be far removed, from all previous events and or those involved, an accident or a sudden illness that brings about their death because they can, they have connections within the medical community here in Massachusetts, as I’ve learned! And these people are not muslin terrorist, they are a mixed bag of screwballs period, who pose as being people they aren’t and have professional positions and the men I met had a white collar position and were working within the health-care field! Yes forgiveness is a process, in the meantime though these men are “ F#ckers” who were allowed to do as they had; now did they borrow the name they had used along with the identity they had, in order to harm me, possibly but it still stands, people in positions had allowed it to happen! I’m not a gangster, a NAZI or a terrorist, I have no affiliation to any hate group, I’m a poor artist, mother and grandmother, I believe in God, Jesus and believe there are good people in every race and religion but I have difficulty maintaining my balance when it comes to sick perverts harming, murdering innocent people.. “Children!” My Mom is ill and I love her and she is not just her illness but unfortunately it has taken over a great deal of her thinking but her disorder does not rule other people, who were already ill-minded and chose to misuse their power and connections, due to their own inner ugliness and they had adopt a cause that gave them an opportunity to show who they really are to act-out their hidden agenda’s “Rearranged Truths” to collaborate with what may now be said and these ding-a-lings, have a propensity for altering, changing, rearranging and tweaking the truth.. Chris did not “Drop Dead” in 1992 he reemerged and or never left Massachusetts! These books and their authors are connected to these men that I met, I believe the author of “Magic Castle” Carol Smith, was possibly jerked around, lied to by the people who played a role in Alex’s life, the counselors and social-workers involved in Alex’s case, some were possibly actors, playing real life roles; which had multi purposes (pun intended) staging events in order that children can be *****ually molested, filmed, a book written and the counselors and alike benefit from the reading public, who is impressed to believe that Alex had multiple personalities (When Alex’s symptoms were possibly all a result of being molested possibly further by ill-mined professionals who took advantage because they can!) that can be controlled, managed with the help of counselors and alike, as well as drugs, the pharmaceutical industry benefits; the health-care facility where these psychopaths had worked, may still, possibly at one of Arbour’s other, privately funded institutions, extending facilities, possibly disguised as being someone else, the head of pediatrics or possibly a plant in an office, well hey they are lunatics, and this “Caring Business” also owns a pharmaceutical lab in Cambridge Mass., it’s about the money at whatever extreme cost to others, regardless of innocence! I have valid reasons to strongly also suspect that these individuals here in Massachusetts are connected to wealthy individuals, possibly related to royalty across the pond, in England, wealthy Wiccans ( allegedly, thus far unsubstantiated! Oh yeah and this book “The Last Madam” is also in some way connected to this same, associated group and my reasons for believing this is, some of the picture shown in this book, the last madam, were altered, I believe my aunt, my uncle’s wife is posing as being the madam in one of the many pictures shown in this book of that era and one of the man shown pictured in the vice squad, is my uncle Dan, posing as being one of the policemen during that era, as well; now were they simply mislead into posing for these pictures, possibly but based on my uncle’s attitude along with other unfolding events, I don’t believe so. This past February of 2012, my aunt and uncle called and wanted to see me, they acted like they cared, phonies, their real concern was for themselves, they told me that my uncle Dan was going to be in a Hollywood movie! That’s nice I said, they then advised me not to write about my experience, my lived through nightmare! I later called them, to inform them that I am writing about my experience and my ill Mom, along with your ill-minded associates! My Mom’s ill-minded siblings, who for whatever reason thought it okay to harm me when I have done nothing to harm them, we’ve had no battles, no lingering disputes that would caused them to make such a “Deal” have me set up! Envy about my artwork, artwork that I haven’t been able to do, thus far hmmm’’ why is that, well for one, things haven’t been very conducive, inspiring for creativity! One of my youngest son’s friends is muslin, my son often stays at house with his family, they cook, play games and interact in harmony and I’m a white woman, who is Catholic and live in a state that has many hospitals & schools “Caring Businesses” and freedoms that I’ve always been grateful for; but I have little trust now about some relatives in my family, counselors, institutions and people in positions of power, who may, at a moment’s notice misuse their power, in order to harm people, set them up, stage events, write books that are public hoaxes, people who have done nothing to them! Evil goes where it is welcomed, regardless of your skin color or religion, evil wants the good and how the good is obtained, is through the evil-act committed to get the good, the glory, the *****, the acclaim, control, power, money……and at some point the shame, regret, prison, misery absence of God! My health has been compromised; do to all that has happened, my nonfictional book, one day, soon! Peace.. Ocellus 7 < my pseudonym name, never thought I’d need to shield my identity!

P. S. The Counselor spoke Spanish, Portuguese and English that I know of, possibly more, posibly second generation NAZI’s that fled to Brazil after World war 2 and later taught the Spanish soldiers how to murder people and dispose of their bodies, as in the dirty wars and or Indo-Aryan? Why the Catholic Church not only hide Jewish folks but hide NAZIs l also heard possibly here in Massachusetts, may be my uncle Dan and Linda are a-part of that group, they for sure knew these men, my uncle made a slip, telling me the very same story that Al Bliss, Smith, had told me years earlier when Al had befriended me, a rather unusual story that both men did, exactly the same way; when lying and scheming, it is difficult to remember who said what or did what when, Dan proved that to be, the truth!